I should have the right to chose my own ending.

Let me start this with a little disclaimer which states that I know this is a touchy subject and I know everyone has strong opinions one way or another.  That being said, this is just about MY opinion and what I feel is right for me.  So don’t be getting all pissed off at me and start sending me hate mail.  That’s not saying I’m not ok with hearing other opinions on the subject so please free to share if you feel the need.

The topic of cancer had come up in work the other day and I mentioned that if I ever got cancer (specifically lung cancer) then I would shoot myself.  If I ever got to the point of suffering to breath then I would want to put an end to it.  Then I thought better of it and decided that I would go the Dr. Kevorkian route and be peacefully put to sleep, like a dog.   I think people should be able decide for themselves when it’s time to pass on without further suffering and with dignity.  I think Dr. Kevorkian provided people with the compassion and respect to no longer want to suffer, and I don’t see what’s wrong with that.

I’m not saying I condone suicide.  If people are depressed or have mental illness then I think we need to help them.  I’m saying that if I was in the end of my life and losing the battle with cancer, I don’t want to suffer and I feel I have the right to make decisions about my own life.  I would fight like hell to the end and this would be the LAST resort.  But if I’m in pain and suffering with no cure, then I want to be put out of my misery.  I have personally watched several loved ones die of cancer and it’s horrible.

I know it isn’t a pleasant conversation and not the popular opinion, but it’s my opinion.

Capstone Project….what?

I ended up at Weymouth High School last night with my sister.  At first I didn’t fully understand what was actually going on there, just that my nephew had some school fair or something.  But when I got there I found that it was the open house of the Capstone Projects from the Senior class.  I’ve heard this terminology before but never fully understood what it was.  Apparently, every Senior has to do a Capstone Project and it’s a big part of their final grade.

My nephew did his on Donald Trump and his road to success.  I was impressed, he did a great job on it and it was very interesting.  I was so proud of him.

I walked around the school to check out the other students projects and was blown away at how smart these kids are.  Some of them went into great detail with research, polls, graphs and charts and informational handouts.  I was really impressed.

The subjects varied greatly but all were very interesting.  One was on the diversity of races in the high school, and I have to say that I was surprised to see that the high school wasn’t as diverse as I would have thought.  Another great one that hit close to home for me (because my family is personally affected) was an autistic boy did his on…..well yes, autism.  He did such a great job on it and I even learned some things myself.  Another interesting one on eyewitness testimony really opened my eyes and made me think about the process of how one detail can put an innocent person in prison or let a guilty one go free.  A topic that I have mixed thoughts on was titled “You don’t go to private school but you still wear a uniform every day”.  This was about how kids are judged on so many levels and mostly their clothing.  If you don’t wear the “right clothes” then you are outcast and labeled.  There was much more to it but it reminds me how cruel kids can be.

A couple girls did their project together about lifting the school ban on wearing flip flops.  I have to say, it’s impressive at that age to take on the school about something they believe in.  Bravo girls, bravo.  Their project even made it to the Boston Globe newspaper, check out the article; Students weigh in on flip-flop flap.

So in the end I was happy that I ended up there, even though it wasn’t planned.  And I have to say that I’m happy we didn’t have to do a project like that back when I was in high school.



Tiny house movement…..sign me up!

Bayside Bungalowphoto from Bayside Bungalo blog.

In my last post, “Burning desire to start anew”, I talked about my recent urge to start over, make something new of my life.  Well it seems I found what I’ve been looking for, now to figure out the logistics and make it happen.

I’ve been watching the “tiny house movement” for years and it has always intrigued me.  But in my circumstances it was never a feasible option.  Now that I am single again, no debt (just my car loan), and looking for a simpler and more enjoyable life…….I think it’s what I’m meant to do.

I am absolutely in LOVE with this tiny house and I could TOTALLY live in a house like this.  It’s beautiful, don’t you think?  I am amazed at their creativity on storage solutions.  And to be honest with you, it has more storage space than my 1200 sq ft apartment.  That’s pretty sad.  LOL  The full size kitchen is amazing, without sacrificing.  However, being a vegetarian who doesn’t cook much, I could probably get away with a more efficient size oven but this shows that you don’t have to.  I would never imagine that you could have a full size refrigerator in the kitchen of a tiny house, and that would be perfect for all of my produce.

The concept of living simple with less crap is so appealing to me.  I found myself sitting there on my couch last night looking around my place at all the stuff I really don’t “need”.  I love my place, it’s beautiful and cozy.  But as I’m sitting there I realized all the things I really could do without.  My big comfy furniture, the big screen tv and entertainment stand, chunky coffee table and end table, the over-sized dining room set that gets used maybe two or three times a year on holidays, the buffet table, the hutch, an organ that I don’t know how to play but it was my great uncles, a 6′ tall bookcase full of books and picture frames, the modern decor and artwork all around…..and this was all just in my living room and dining room.

As I moved into my kitchen, I see how much crap are in my drawers and cabinets.  I have drawers full of gadgets that I never use, do I really need five mixing spoons and three spatulas?  I’m pretty sure I could get away with keeping only one of the two can openers I have.  And I could probably get rid of the four different cheese slicers altogether, since I don’t tend to serve cheese and crackers on the rare occasions that I entertain.  And the cabinets full of pots and pans when I only use one or two.

I could go on and on here through each room of my house, but I think you get the point.  We tend to hold onto things, things we keep in case we might need it but never actually use.  Or at least I see that I obviously do.  My place is very neat, organized and clutter free anyway because I’m sort of an OCD neat freak.  Trust me, it’s a constant source of teasing from my boyfriend.  LOL  So until I really looked around and paid attention to what I have, I never realized how much I hold on to.

So here is my plan of attack, to make this dream of living a simpler life a reality.

I will start going through every nook and cranny of my house and get rid of items that don’t have a purpose.  Sell it, give it away, recycle or trash anything that isn’t a necessity.  If it’s not something I use frequently, I probably don’t need it.  Now I just need to determine the criteria of frequently.  Would it be something I use weekly or monthly?  I don’t know, haven’t figured that out yet.

This is the part that will consume the most time.  I am one who needs to make sense of everything and do it in an orderly fashion.  I will extensively research different models of tiny houses and determine what I need in my tiny home.  I do know that I want to build it on a flatbed trailer so I can move every couple of years if I chose, and that will help get around some building codes I think.  And I also know that I want to build it “off grid” along with the option to hook up to standard utilities if needed.  But being off grid is huge for me.

Then I will create a list of materials, supplies and prices to create a budget.  I will play around with different floor plans and probably draw plans up a million times.  I’ll spend countless hours reading books and watching YouTube videos on building and codes.  I will network with other tiny homeowners and gather information on do’s and don’ts that they have learned from their experience.  I will need to find a build site and then I need to figure out where I will put my tiny home to live.

Basically, I want a good solid plan to make this as simple and stress free as possible.  Of course I know unexpected issues will come up but if I do my research I can avoid as much as possible.

This will be the hard part.  Living on a single income, paying rent, utilities, car loan and insurance, etc.  I will have to get on a mission of saving some serious cash.  I know I can do it if I put my mind to it.

“…You can do it put your back into it.  I can do it put your ass into it…I’m gon’ do it, gon’ do it.  Gon’ do it, do it, do it…”

Sorry I got a little sidetracked when Ice Cube popped in my head.  But seriously, it will be worth it if I can discipline my budget and cash flow this project.

And I want to look into the possibility of getting sponsors to help with materials and knowledge.  I saw on another tiny homeowners blog that this is possible, who’d a thunk?

Build, baby build:
Once all these previous steps are completed, I can get to the fun stuff!  Fortunately, I do have some building experience and I am very crafty.  I was always my fathers little tomboy and he taught me a lot.  I really enjoy building shit, I really do.  Nothing scares me, except electrical.  But, I have several friends who’s hubbies are contractors so I’m hoping I can work something out where they will help me on those days for some good pizza and beer.  LOL  Or for a nominal fee.  But I’ll be doing most of the labor all by myself, other than recruiting some help with heavy lifting and task where you need more than two hands.

I am obsessed with the concept of living rent free and building my own home and owning it, even if it is tiny.  I am even more obsessed with the concept of living off grid and not spending hundreds each month on utilities and being self sustained.  It blows my mind to think of how much I could be putting into savings each month if I wasn’t paying rent and utilities.

Now that I’ve made this entry far longer than I planned, I guess I will end with how super stoked I am about this project and how I really want to do everything I can to make it happen.  And I will ignore those who will be against this venture and just soak in the positive people and do what I want to do for ME.

If you have read to this point, thank you so much!  And if you have any input on this subject I would appreciate any of it.  Please share the good, the bad, and the ugly……I need to know it all.


I can’t stop searching tiny houses, so here are a couple of my favorite sites so far.  Enjoy.

Tiny House Build  (This is my absolute favorite)

Bayside Bungalow:  A tiny house for nighty rental

The Tiny Tack House:  Tiny…..It’s kind of a big deal

The Tiny Life:  Tiny houses, Tiny living

Burning desire to start anew

So let me start with the definition of anew.  Trust me, this is for MY dumb ass not yours.  For some reason that heading popped in my mind and then I was like, well what the hell exactly is anew and am I using this term correctly?  Yes, it’s usually the simplest things that throw me off.


adverb: anew
1. in a new or different, typically more positive, way.
2. once more; again.

As it turns out, I am using the term correctly.  So let’s move on shall we?

All of a sudden I’ve been having this crazy burning desire to relocate, start over, a new beginning, in a new place.  It’s not that I don’t like my life here, because I do.  I have a good job, a great income, a beautiful home, great friends and a loving family (for the most part).  I’m a born and bred Boston girl and I’ve never lived anywhere else.  But I envy others who just up and move onto new places and new things.  This is a big world to explore and I don’t like that I’ve tied myself down to one small little corner of it.

There is no reason why I should be tied down to this little corner.  I recently went through a divorce with the man I spent fourteen years of my life with.  That’s a long time.  I never would have imagined my life without him, but here I am.  It’s been two years since I left and I went through a lot to get where I am today, but that’s another story altogether.  I’m finally in a good place now (figuratively speaking) and I’m happy with the new me.  I’m doing it on my own, without depending or answering to anyone else.  Now is the time to take chances, I have nothing holding me back.

The only thing holding me back is fear.  Fear of moving somewhere new and different.  Fear of being alone.  Fear of leaving my friends and family.  Fear of leaving a great job that is secure.  Fear, fear, fear!  Dammit why do I let fear hold me back of potentially great opportunities?

LTBTropicalSkyDivaIslandHow does one start the process of starting all over somewhere new?  I don’t know.  But of course my mind wandered into dream land and thought of all the wonderful places I could live.  Hawaii, the Florida Keys, maybe even Fiji.  LOL  But I suppose those aren’t realistic and cost of living is high.  I do know I want somewhere sunny with a comfortable climate so I can ride my mountain bike and my Harley year round.  Somewhere that I can find a decent job and a nice place to live.  I’m a vegetarian (yup I’m “one of those”) so I need access to an abundance of fresh, affordable fruits and veggies.  Somewhere I can work hard and play hard.  I need a place that inspires happiness and gratitude.  Because to be honest, everyone around here just sucks!

Now I’m addicted to searching all over craigslist and googling all sorts of cities to check out jobs, rentals, cost of living, population, climate etc.  I also found this really cool site that shows what income you need to make in another city to compare what you make in your current city based on cost of living.  Check it out, it’s Cost of Living Calculator.

I will continue to do my research to find out where I would like to live then start taking steps to see if it can all fall into place.   I know it’s not easy, and it’s definitely scary, but if the right opportunity comes along I am going to grab it.  I believe that everything happens for a reason and if it’s meant to be than it will be.  Hmmmm can I toss in anymore cliche’s?  LOL

I would love to hear stories from those of you who have actually packed up and moved on to somewhere new.   Are you happy your did or do you regret it?   Was it hard financially?  Are there things you know now that you wish you knew then to make it easier?


Natural remedies

So I see it’s been a while since I last posted but life has been busy. Work has been crazy and my personal life has been very busy, but that’s good because it keeps me out of trouble. There have been a lot of stressful issues as well in the last month but I’ve been dealing with them and things are starting to look up. So yayyyyyy me!

However, I’ve been fighting a horrible head cold for the last week and I’ve had enough. Then yesterday my friend at work brought me in a jar of something that she made for me and said it gets rid of colds naturally. And me being one who suffers through most illnesses instead of taking medications for them, I was happy to give it a try.

elderberry-spoon1-1024x753It’s Elderberry Syrup and it taste sweet so it’s easy to take. I took some yesterday afternoon then forgot to bring it home so I didn’t take more until this morning and I just took some at lunch. I don’t know if it’s working or not but I’m willing to keep taking it today and hopefully I’ll notice a difference in the morning. I know it’s not a miracle cure and probably need a good day or two of it in my system.

My friend has a book full of natural remedies and I need to find out what it is so I can go get my own. In the meantime, I did a quick search on the net and found a couple of cool sites that share this Elderberry Syrup recipe so I wanted to share them here. There are some variations so use the one that appeals to you most. I’ve also added some links to sites on natural remedies in general, not just the Elderberry. Enjoy.

Here’s to good, natural health:

How to Make Elderberry Syrup for Colds and Flu from myhumblekitchen.com
Elderberry Syrup Recipe for Cold and Flu Prevention from holisticsquid.com
How to Make Elderberry Syrup from thehungrymouse.com

Herbal Remedies from anniesremedy.com
Natural Homemade Remedies on Pinterest
Free Home Remedies and Simple Herbal Medicine Making from learningherbs.com